Today, I've been talking to her online, and she's talking about suicide. This is something that I'm torn about. I know that last year, when my health was at it's worst, I wanted to kill myself SO desperately, that I almost did. The only thing stopping me was the people I left behind would be even MORE hurt and upset by that than by my being a burden on them.
As most people know, I'm a suicide advocate. I know it's controversial, and may sound silly, but I think that people should be able to kill themselves if they've exhausted every other option, have made the decision in a non-emotional state, and have no children. This is difficult for me to deal with. I love my friend, and I know that this is a really difficult decision. It's just...breaking my heart that I can't do anything for her. I've even suggested God. Faith gives people hope. People with hope want to live regardless of how hopeless the situation is.
3 comments:
What a hard situation to be in, both you and especially her. I am glad you suggested faith. I don't know that I believe in healing - not in the "hallelujah, youv'e been healed way - but I do believe that faith can help someone through anything. Even emotional and physical pain. Actually, I think it is these times of absolute desperation that let us forfeit control enough (like we would have this problem?) to consider faith. It is a process I will pray she will consider.
It is hard to step back from yourself and see the ramifications of suicide, I am glad you did. There are very few people in the world, possibly none, who no one would miss.
I have enjoyed reading your posts. I love that we can scratch the surface this way.
also, I don't know if you see this but the picture you posted - it looks like wings coming out of his back.
I know it must be very difficult to
be going thru this situation with your friend...I commend you for your honesty.
I have been at that same desperate point myself, and the reason I could not do it was the pain I would cause all of my dear family.
Sometimes the most loving thing we can do
is to keep going~even in pain.
Know that I love you, sara,
and I'm very proud of you.
Interesting point you made
to your friend...
YES, God does offer HOPE
when life really sucks!
I KNOW this..
Hang in there...with life and your friend.
There is Hope for you , too.
all my love, marmee
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